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Ariana Grande has spoken about the 'trauma' of the Manchester terror attack

NO SALES. Free for editorial use. Handout photo issued by One Love Manchester of Ariana Grande performing during the One Love Manchester benefit concert for the victims of the Manchester Arena terror attack at Emirates Old Trafford, Greater Manchester.
Ariana Grande performing during the One Love Manchester benefit concert (Credit: PA)

Ariana Grande has spoken about the Manchester terror attack saying, “it’s not my trauma.”

Terrorists targeted a concert held by the US pop singer at Manchester Arena in May 2017, with a suicide bomber killing 22 people.

Grande, 26, told Vogue magazine: "It's not my trauma. It's those families.

"It's their losses, and so it's hard to just let it all out without thinking about them reading this and reopening the memory for them."

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The No Tears Left To Cry singer headlined the One Love Manchester fundraising concert at Manchester's Old Trafford cricket ground last year for the victims of the attack and their families. But Grande admitted she felt she did “nothing”.

She said: "I'm proud that we were able to raise a lot of money with the intention of giving people a feeling of love or unity, but at the end of the day, it didn't bring anyone back.

"Everyone was like, Wow, look at this amazing thing, and I was like, 'What the f*** are you guys talking about?'

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"We did the best we could, but on a totally real level we did nothing. I'm sorry."

The Bang Bang singer added: "I have a lot to say that could probably help people that I do want to share, but I have a lot that I still need to process myself and will probably never be ready to talk about.

"For a long time I didn't want to talk to anyone about anything, because I didn't want to think about anything. I kind of just wanted to bury myself in work and not focus on the real stuff, because I couldn't believe it was real."

Comedian Pete Davidson, left, and fiancee singer Ariana Grande arrive at the MTV Video Music Awards at Radio City Music Hall on Monday, Aug. 20, 2018, in New York. (Photo by Evan Agostini/Invision/AP)
Comedian Pete Davidso and fiancee singer Ariana Grande at the MTV Video Music Awards in 2018 (Photo by Evan Agostini/Invision/AP)

In the past year Grande has had to cope with the death of her ex-boyfriend Mac Miller, and her split from comedian fiance Pete Davidson.

Grande described herself as: “The luckiest girl in the world, and the unluckiest".

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The singer said: "I'm walking this fine line between healing myself and not letting the things that I've gone through be picked at before I'm ready, and also celebrating the beautiful things that have happened in my life and not feeling scared that they'll be taken away from me because trauma tells me that they will be, you know what I mean?"

Miller - who Grande dated from August 2016 to May 2018 - died in September 2018 aged 26 from an accidental drug overdose.

Grande said she can barely remember the months following, "because I was (a) so drunk and (b) so sad".