Former EastEnders star Barbara Windsor has explained why she never had children, as she opened up about the biggest regrets of her life.
Babs will examine Barbara's huge rise to fame, and the darker side of her life – including her difficult relationship with her father and ex-husband Ronnie Knight.
Ahead of the screening for the BBC biopic, Barbara opened up about her personal life – explaining why she decided not to have kids.
"I consider myself to be a warm and lovely person but I never had any maternal feelings," she told The Sun. "Neither did my mother, so that message was constantly fed to me as a child."
Speaking about her regrets, Barbara says of her five abortions: "I know it was wrong, against what you should do.
"My mother never told me about the facts of life. It was ridiculous. I'd make a mistake then go straight on and do it again. I was so naive.
"I'm the generation where you kept your feelings to yourself, so I always made out everything was fine.
"But I went through a lot of mental stress. I thought a lot about God and what he would think of me."
Babs will air on Sunday, May 7 at 8pm on BBC One.
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