Britney Spears apologised for “pretending to be OK” in her first Instagram post since her explosive court testimony.
Sharing an Albert Einstein quote on her Instagram, the 39-year-old delivered her first public statement after asking a judge to end the “abusive” conservatorship that has controlled her life and finances for 13 years.
Spears admitted Thursday evening (24 June) that her upbeat Instagram presence, one of freeform dancing and cat videos, is all a “fairy tale” and has long given the wrong impression about her life.
“I apologise for pretending like I’ve been OK the past two years,” the caption read, saying she put on a brave front “because of my pride and I was embarrassed to share what happened to me.
“But honestly who doesn’t want to capture their Instagram in a fun light !!!”
Her caption echoed the comments she made during a remote court hearing Wednesday afternoon, where she told a judge that the conservatorship she has been entangled in since 2008 has left her “traumatised”.
“I’ve told the world I’m happy and OK,” she told a judge. “I lied. I am not happy, I can’t sleep. I’m so angry, it’s insane, and I’m depressed.”
Britney Spears: ‘I don’t want people to think my life is perfect’
In the Instagram post, Britney Spears sought to dispel the comely image she has curated on Instagram.
“I just want to tell you guys a little secret … I believe as people we all want the fairy tale life and by the way I’ve posted … my life seems to look and be pretty amazing … I think that’s what we all strive for !!!!” she wrote.
“That was one of my mother’s best traits … no matter how s**** a day was when I was younger … for the sake of me and my siblings she always pretended like everything was OK.
“I’m bringing this to peoples’ attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because IT’S DEFINITELY NOT AT ALL … and if you have read anything about me in the news this week … you obviously really know now it’s not !!!!”
Spears said sorry to her 30.6 million followers for putting on a brave face all these years, but added that pretending to be happy “actually helped”.
“I decided to post this quote today because by golly if you’re going through hell,” she said.
“I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence … existence … and to simply feel like I matter despite what I was going through and hey it worked … so I’ve decided to start reading more fairy tales.”
Fans have previously questioned whether Britney Spears is in control of her Instagram account, which has become her main source of communication with them.
Her social media manager Cassie Petrey has previously hit back at theories the star has been forced to leave secret messages in her flowery videos and posts – however fans continue to share their concerns, particularly in light of Spears’ claim her life is “controlled”.
In the wake of Framing Britney Spears earlier this year, wrote in an Instagram post that “Britney creates her own posts and writes her own captions for Instagram”, stressing that she receives no external input on her content.
“She has stated many times that she creates the posts, but people continue to believe conspiracy theories over what Britney says over and over again.”
She added: “She is literally just living her life and trying to have fun on Instagram.”