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Emily Ratajkowski has admitted to still feeling "panic and humiliation" when talking about Robin Thicke, who she says groped her while they were filming his Blurred Lines music video in 2013.
The model and author wrote about the alleged incident in her collection of essays, My Body, and in a new interview has said she still struggles with speaking out about her experience.
Talking to the Guardian, she said: "Even now talking about it, I don't like the weird position it puts me in.
"Online we have this discourse of, 'oh, women, tell your truths, it's so brave,' but I see first hand the conversations that happen behind closed doors and the other feeling that 'now she's complaining but look what it brought her, how could she do that to that man and let the world know about something he did when he was drunk which was stupid', even now I feel those voices and have a bit of panic...and humiliation."
Ratajkowski, 30, said that she hadn't let herself think about what had happened during the nine-hour video shoot on the day, adding: "It didn't feel congruent to what I wanted to believe which is that I was that girl from the video and look what it's brought me, I'm now famous and people know my name, so I didn't talk about that part of the experience because I felt like it was revealing and humiliating."
She said that after #MeToo had happened and she had met her husband, actor Sebastian Bear-McClard, she began to think more about things that had happened to her during her modelling career and acknowledge it for the first time.
Ratajkowski said that she had mixed feelings about the Blurred Lines video, saying she thought that in some ways it was a fun video but adding that it felt like she and the other models "were props on set".
She said that she was sure Thicke was "a wonderful person in many, many ways" but that there was a culture of men being allowed to take advantage of women which had to be talked about and changed.
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