Fifth Harmony star Normani Kordei has opened up about dealing with racism and death threats, and the feeling of isolation being one of the only members of the band of colour.
The singer, who is currently beginning her anticipated solo career away from the group, recalled her loneliness as part of the band and how the others tried to support her.
"I don't think they had the tools that they needed, because it's not their experience. I can give them credit for trying to be there for me, but at the same time... The girls don't experience things the way I did," she told Billboard.
Normani also recalled a horrific incident involving fans of former bandmate Camila Cabello.
She said the fans sent her death threats, racist messages and images of lynchings on social media after they thought she had shaded their idol in a Facebook Live interview in 2016 – Camila then told them to back off.
Speaking further of her experience in Fifth Harmony prior to their hiatus, the singer revealed she "would cry like [she's] never cried before" in sessions, one in particular being for the song 'No Way' where she was the only member to sing background vocals.
"It was a subconscious thing," she continued of the toll it took on her mental health. "You think, 'Why am I the least followed in the group?' Even if you don’t recognize that you’re paying close attention to it, it takes a toll on your confidence. You worry - is it me? Is it because I’m black? Or am I just not talented?"
The star also spoke out about her upcoming debut solo album, telling the outlet: "There’s so much that I have to get off my chest.
"And there’s a responsibility I have as a black woman - one of the very few to have the power to kill it. Even in the mainstream, there’s not many of us.
"Especially chocolate girls. Like, being African-American is one thing, but girls [with] my complexion […] it’s unheard of. It’s me, and SZA. Who else?"
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