Hollyoaks' Jorgie Porter opens up on heartbreaking miscarriage of quadruplets

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Hollyoaks' Jorgie Porter has shared the heartbreaking news that she experienced a miscarriage earlier this year, sadly losing the quadruplets she was expecting with partner Ollie Piotrowski.

In a candid interview with Fabulous magazine, Porter spoke of her initial excitement at being pregnant, saying that, though she and Piotrowski had only been together seven months at the time, she knew he was the partner she wanted to have children with.

"Ollie said he could see himself having children with me – it was a big moment because I felt like I absolutely wanted children with him too," she said. "I remember driving to work thinking 'I want to come off the Pill'. I'd been dating him for less than a year, but I knew I wanted him to father my kids."

Photo credit: @themissyporter - Instagram
Photo credit: @themissyporter - Instagram

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Opening up on the moment the couple discovered that they were expecting quadruplets, Porter said that they were "thrown" and it was an "emotional blur".

"The midwife said 'OK, there are four embryos'," Porter recalled. "We were thrown into the air. My first words were: 'I'm too little to have four!' and Ollie was like: 'Four? Four?!'. Our lives passed before our eyes.

"My first feeling was excitement. I wasn't thinking about the practicalities of raising four – I just started visualising our own mini football team or girl band. Then I started panicking, thinking things like 'how will I breastfeed them all?'. It was an emotional blur."

Further to this was the concern over carrying higher-order multiples as this increases the risk of premature birth, miscarriage and genetic abnormalities, with Porter admitting that she was "scared" each time they went for a scan.

"It was so stressful. I wanted to believe everything was going to be ok, but I was scared because I knew the risks. At every scan, we'd have the same worry – do they have heartbeats? I was going through so many emotions. I was carrying four babies, but didn't know if they'd survive. Whenever I was around anyone who knew me well, I felt the need to go 'I need a hug'. It was like I needed people to carry me emotionally."

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Photo credit: David M. Benett - Getty Images

Tragically, their fears became reality in August at a 14-week scan when no heartbeats were detected. They were informed there had been a missed miscarriage, in which the body does not recognise a pregnancy loss, hence they were both in "total shock" as Porter's pregnancy symptoms had continued.

"It didn't make sense. I'd not had any sign that things weren't ok. No pain or bleeding, I was getting bigger, my boobs were growing, I had so much hair on my body and I still felt pregnant. When the consultant performed the scan then said 'You've miscarried', I was in total shock."

Porter credits Piotrowski's strength and support as helping her to grieve and heal through the past few months.

"Of course I've shed tears [and] I've tried to come to terms with it by thinking 'They've never lived, I don't know them', but it took Ollie to say to me 'You held them in you for three months' to appreciate the power of those emotions. Men suffer during miscarriage too, and Ollie was so, so sad. By voicing his feelings, he got us through, because that encouraged me to speak about mine too.

"This experience has tested us in so many ways, to make sure that we're now certain we want it."

Hollyoaks airs new episodes from Mondays to Fridays at 6.30pm on Channel 4, with first-look screenings at 7pm on E4. Selected omnibus episodes are available via Amazon Prime Video.

Read more Hollyoaks spoilers on our dedicated homepage.

Sands supports anyone affected by the death of a baby. You can contact the Sands National Helpline on 0808 164 3332, or email helpline@sands.org.uk.

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