Jessie J says she's feeling "heartbroken" and "lonely" after suffering a miscarriage.
The singer took to Instagram on Wednesday, 24 November, to share a photo of herself holding up a positive pregnancy test and a Şeyda Noir quote that read: "Sometimes love won't be enough to make it work, and that's ok. It doesn't mean that you've failed."
In the caption, Jessie explained that she wanted to be open about her recent loss because she knew she wouldn't be able to not talk about it on stage during her performance in Los Angeles that evening, and that posting about it on Instagram beforehand "felt safer" than indulging in a "tearful, emotional speech" in front of a live crowd.
"After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat this morning, I feel like I have no control of my emotions," she wrote. "I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don't know."
The 33 year old went on to say that she has been privately trying to have a baby on her own for a little while now "because it's all [she's] ever wanted and life is short". She described how getting pregnant felt like "a miracle in itself" and was something she'll know she'll experience again in the future.
Jessie continued: "What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because I'm avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me.
"I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it. But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn't ever changed and I have to process this my way.
"I want to be honest and true and not hide what I'm feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it's best."
The 'Nobody's Perfect' hitmaker concluded by admitting she's "still in shock" and that she's finding the sadness "overwhelming". Ultimately though, she said she "will be ok".
"I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don't. It's the loneliest feeling in the world. So I will see you tonight, LA. I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room."
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