Kanye West has admitted that he’s contemplated suicide on more than one occasion.
The rapper spoke out about his intrusive thoughts and state of his mental health when interviewed by The New York Times.
In it, he revealed that one of his biggest recent fears was his wife, Kim Kardashian-West, 37, would leave him after the controversial slavery comments he made to TMZ back in April.
And with the opening track on his latest album Ye called I Thought About Killing You, he was asked about if he’d ever thought about killing himself.
‘Oh yeah, I’ve thought about killing myself all the time,’ Kanye, 41, said.
The question arose after the song includes the lyrics: ‘Today I thought about killing you, premeditated murder/I think about killing myself/And I, I love myself way more than I love you.’
‘It’s always an option. Like Louis CK said, “I flip through the manual. I weigh all the options”,’ the Jesus Walks singer said.
‘I did think it all the way through. But if I didn’t think it all the way through, then it’s actually maybe more of a chance of it happening.’
And his controversial opinions on slavery – notably, ‘When you hear about slavery for 400 years… For 400 years? That sounds like a choice!’ – gave him cause for concern, too, in regards to who’d potentially disown him for making such out-there statements.
‘I called different family members and was asking, you know, “Was Kim thinking about leaving me after TMZ?” So that was a real conversation.’
He confesses that he ‘learned so much’ in the wake of the TMZ appearance and the huge backlash he experienced.
‘I learned about the context of the idea of the word ‘slave’. I didn’t take it in that context,’ he said, before backtracking somewhat by claiming he didn’t actually say slavery was ‘a choice’.
The star attempted to explain what he meant with his specific choice of words: ‘I said the idea of sitting in something for 400 years sounds – sounds – like a choice to me.
‘I never said it’s a choice. I never said slavery itself – like, being shackled in chains – was a choice.’
The rapper was also quizzed on his very public support for current president Donald Trump: ‘I liked him, and I’m not scared to say what I like,’ he admitted.
The singer also claims to have felt pressure to support his opposition, Hillary Clinton, during the 2016 presidential election. ‘It was like an arranged marriage or something,’ he said.
‘And I’m, like, that’s not who I want to marry. I don’t feel that.
‘I was living inside of some universe that was created by the mob-thought, and I had lost who I was, so that’s when I was in the sunken place. You look in my eyes right now — you see no sunken place’.