Louise Thompson admits 'I wanted to die' after harrowing birth experience


Louise Thompson has given a heartbreakingly candid interview about her wanting to die following a traumatic birth experience.

During the delivery of her son, Made In Chelsea star Louise faced an agonising labour when his head became lodged in her pelvis, leading to an emergency caesarean. The situation escalated when she lost over three-quarters of her body's blood volume due to a haemorrhage that doctors struggled to control for more than three hours.

She later discovered that a tear in her womb was the source of the bleeding, and recounted how everyone around her was deeply distressed by the events. Despite now living with a stoma as a result of her long-term battle with ulcerative colitis, Louise is committed to sharing her health journey openly to support others, reports the Mirror.

In her discussion on Loose Women about the ordeal and her overall health struggles, Louise expressed: "No one really knew how to support me ... I couldn't function at all. The lights were on but no one was home. Someone had turned a dimmer switch on my entire life. It's not just buy a new dress, have a cup of tea, have a bath. All of your senses are off.

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"I thought, if I could pretend, I'd get there one day. It was a traumatic time for everyone. I couldn't really speak for a while; I was non-verbal. I could just write, so some of that went into the book. It was hard, and I think my family did everything they could."

She revealed: "I was very sick, and I came very close to dying. A lot of it has left me very scarred... I would say to Ryan, I want to get better because I love you. I didn't feel it, I wanted to die. I said if I can pretend then maybe I'll get there one day."

In a candid recount of her traumatic birthing experience, Louise described how she had felt like she was "bleeding to death", stating it seemed like a "sick nightmare". She shared with MailOnline: "I heard a cry as Leo came out, but I didn't care that I had a child. I genuinely believed every second I was bleeding to death. I kept turning to [my fiance] Ryan [Libbey] and asking him whether I was still alive I didn't believe I could be. No one gave us any reassurance; it was all like some sick nightmare."

Louise continued: "Everyone in the room looked very distressed, I could feel their shaky hands on my body. If they'd allowed me to have a planned c-section, things could have been very different."

Post-delivery, Louise confessed: "I was in a state of perpetual fear and hyper-vigilance, unable to function for a large period of time, sitting on the sofa, completely losing my soul, my personality."

*Loose Women airs weekdays on ITV1 at 12.30pm.