Louise Thompson chokes back tears on Loose Women as she admits 'I wanted to die' in heartbreaking admission


Louise Thompson revealed in a candid Loose Women that she "wanted to die" following her harrowing childbirth experience.

The Made In Chelsea personality underwent a distressing birth where her son's head became lodged in her pelvis. She required an emergency C-section and lost over three and half litres of blood when doctors struggled for hours to control a haemorrhage.

She later learned that a torn womb was responsible for the life-threatening bleed, which left everyone in the room feeling panic-stricken. She now lives with a stoma owing to a prolonged fight with ulcerative colitis but remains committed to talking openly about her health issues to assist others.

In her conversation with Loose Women about her daunting birth ordeal and overall health struggles, Louise described her feelings, saying: "No one really knew how to support me ... I couldn't function at all. The lights were on but no one was home. Someone had turned a dimmer switch on my entire life. It's not just buy a new dress, have a cup of tea, have a bath. All of your senses are off."

"I thought, if I could pretend, I'd get there one day. It was a traumatic time for everyone. I couldn't really speak for a while; I was non-verbal. I could just write, so some of that went into the book. It was hard, and I think my family did everything they could," reports the Mirror.

Louise and her fiance Ryan spoke about the traumatic birth on Loose Women today
Louise and her fiance Ryan spoke about the traumatic birth on Loose Women today -Credit:ITV

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"I was very sick, and I came very close to dying. A lot of it has left me very scarred ... I would say to Ryan, I want to get better because I love you. I didn't feel it, I wanted to die. I said if I can pretend then maybe I'll get there one day."

Louise previously explained how she felt she was "bleeding to death" during the traumatic birth of her son, describing it as a "sick nightmare". She recalls constantly turning to her fiance Ryan and asking if she was still alive.

Louise Thompson spoke about her mental health in an interview with Loose Women today, where she admitted she wanted to die
Louise Thompson spoke about her mental health in an interview with Loose Women today, where she admitted she wanted to die -Credit:ITV

Speaking about the birth, she recalled to MailOnline: "I heard a cry as Leo came out, but I didn't care that I had a child. I genuinely believed every second I was bleeding to death. I kept turning to [my fiance] Ryan [Libbey] and asking him whether I was still alive I didn't believe I could be. No one gave us any reassurance; it was all like some sick nightmare.

"Everyone in the room looked very distressed, I could feel their shaky hands on my body. If they’d allowed me to have a planned c-section, things could have been very different." Following the birth, Louise admitted: "I was in a state of perpetual fear and hyper-vigilance, unable to function for a large period of time, sitting on the sofa, completely losing my soul, my personality."

Loose Women airs weekdays at 12.30pm on ITV.

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