Louise Thompson fights back tears as she confesses 'I wanted to die' in heartbreaking admission

-Credit: (Image: Louise Thompson Instagram)
-Credit: (Image: Louise Thompson Instagram)


Made in Chelsea's Louise Thompson has admitted she wanted to die in a heartbreaking interview on ITV Loose Women. The reality TV star had an agonising labour when her son's head got stuck in her pelvis during birth.

She had to undergo an emergency caesarean and ended up losing three-and-a-half litres of blood when doctors struggled to stop a haemorrhage for more than three hours. Louise was later told that her womb had torn, which had caused the bleeding.

The TV star now has a stoma due to her long-term health battle with ulcerative colitis - a condition where the colon and the rectum become inflamed. She appeared on Loose Women, where she spoke about her traumatic birth.

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She said: "No one really knew how to support me... I couldn't function at all. The lights were on but no one was home. Someone had turned a dimmer switch on my entire life. It's not just buy a new dress, have a cup of tea, have a bath. All of your senses are off.

"I thought, if I could pretend, I'd get there one day. It was a traumatic time for everyone. I couldn't really speak for a while; I was non-verbal. I could just write, so some of that went into the book. It was hard, and I think my family did everything they could."

She added: "I was very sick, and I came very close to dying. A lot of it has left me very scarred... I would say to Ryan, I want to get better because I love you. I didn't feel it, I wanted to die. I said if I can pretend then maybe I'll get there one day."

Louise previously told how she felt she was 'bleeding to death' during the traumatic birth of her son, describing it as a 'sick nightmare'. She recalled constantly turning to her fiancé Ryan and asking if she was still alive, Mirror reports.

Speaking about the birth, she previously told MailOnline : "I heard a cry as Leo came out, but I didn’t care that I had a child. I genuinely believed every second I was bleeding to death. I kept turning to [my fiancé] Ryan [Libbey] and asking him whether I was still alive – I didn’t believe I could be.

"No one gave us any reassurance; it was all like some sick nightmare. Everyone in the room looked very distressed, I could feel their shaky hands on my body.

"If they’d allowed me to have a planned c-section, things could have been very different." Following the birth, Louise admitted: "I was in a state of perpetual fear and hyper-vigilance, unable to function for a large period of time, sitting on the sofa, completely losing my soul, my personality."