Earlier this year, X Factor judge Tulisa Contostavlos' world was rocked after a sex tape featuring herself and her boyfriend leaked online.
After seeking legal action and denying that it was her at the time, the star released a video and admitted that she was indeed the woman in the sex tape a few weeks later. As the news hit the headlines, Tulisa kept a low profile.
Now, in her memoirs, Honest: My Story So Far, the star revealed that the release of her sex tape left her fearing of her future as a judge on the X Factor.
Tulisa had nothing to worry about (WENN)
In paragraphs published in The Sun, the 'Young' hitmaker revealed: "It felt as though there was a massive axe swinging above me head. My job as a judge on The X Factor was to smile and be smart and funny.
"But underneath I was petrified of being made to look like some kind of slapper in front of the nation. I would try to put the whole thing out of my mind but it would all creep back - it was pretty much all-consuming."
She added: "By this time, I'd suffered for months. I was moody and tearful, constantly afraid I'd get fired from The X Factor."
Despite the scandal hitting the headlines, Tulisa admitted that she didn't tell her parents what had happened.
"I spoke to (personal assistant) Gareth and my lawyers, no one else. The thought of speaking to me family, my mum and dad, filled me with dread. I still haven't done that", she confessed.
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