“90 Day”’s Liz Is Left Bawling and 'Embarrassed' After Ed's Blindsiding Breakup: I'm 'the Worst Mom Ever' (Exclusive)

“90 Day”’s Liz Is Left Bawling and 'Embarrassed' After Ed's Blindsiding Breakup: I'm 'the Worst Mom Ever' (Exclusive)

In PEOPLE's exclusive sneak peek at '90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After', Liz is still struggling to accept that Ed wants to move on after he abruptly canceled their wedding, marking their 15th split

Liz is still reeling after "Big" Ed shocked her by cancelling their wedding.

In PEOPLE's exclusive sneak peek at the May 26 episode of 90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After, Liz is emotional as she talks to her mom on the phone after dropping her daughter Ryleigh off at the airport.

"I feel a little sick to my stomach," Liz admits when her mom asks how she's doing.

After confirming that Ryleigh is "on her first flight" safely, Liz's mom asks if Ed even knows that "she's gone" or if he's "even called" to check in.

"No," Liz says and her mom replies, "God, what a prick."

Liz then gets candid about how she's handling the split, which completely took her by surprise — and she found out in a text from her officiant. "This is not what I thought it was going to be a month ago," she says as she breaks down in tears. "But everybody knew this was going to happen. And I had faith that it wasn't [going to]."

Related: 90 Day: Liz Refuses to 'Give Up' on Ed but He’s Been 'Looking for an Excuse to Call Off the Wedding' (Exclusive)

Her mom reassures that she "can see why you would think that it would work out," as Liz says things with Ed were "so different after therapy. It was completely different."

"I know, baby. It's going to be okay," her mom tells her.

"It's embarrassing, Mom. It's so embarrassing," Liz admits. "If I had any thought that this was going to happen, I would have never had Ryleigh involved in this. I would have. I would have never done this season. I would have never done any of this."

Liz then shares the guilt she's feeling over how much the breakup will affect Ryleigh, saying, "I feel like the worst mom ever. I don't even have a home for my kid right now."

Though her mom tells her, she is "a good mom," Liz says, "I feel completely embarrassed, believing that we can make it."

<p>TLC</p> Liz breaks down during '90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After'

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Liz breaks down during '90 Day Fiancé: Happily Ever After'

When Ed said goodbye to Liz's daughter in the May 19 episode, he told her, "No matter what happens between your mom and I, I'll always love you," after he apologized to Ryleigh, who replied, "I accept your apology."

In a confessional, he said his relationship with Ryleigh was "very special" as he opened up about his fears of the breakup affecting her. He said, "My fear is that this has negatively impacted Ryleigh in any way, and that would just break my heart if it did."

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