Loose Women's Andrea McLean didn't tell husband of 'suicidal thoughts' following breakdown

MARBELLA, SPAIN - JULY 29:  (L-R) Nick Feeney and Andrea McLean on July 29, 2018 in Marbella, Spain.  (Photo by Alvaro Cabrera/Getty Images)
Nick Feeney and Andrea McLean in July 2018 in Marbella, Spain. (Alvaro Cabrera/Getty Images)

Loose Women star Andrea McLean has revealed she suffered a breakdown and kept “suicidal thoughts” from her husband.

The presenter, who has been married to businessman Nick Feeney since 2017, said she had the thoughts after the couple had a “tiny” argument last year.

McLean has taken a long road to recovery, which she said has been helped by joint therapy sessions with Feeney.

She also said that writing of her experience in her self-help book This Girl Is On Fire: How To Live, Learn And Thrive In A Life You Love helped her come to terms with her issues.

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LONDON, ENGLAND - SEPTEMBER 17:  Nick Feeney (L) and Andrea McLean attend the European Premiere of "Miss You Already" at Vue West End on September 17, 2015 in London, England.  (Photo by David M. Benett/Dave Benett/WireImage)
Nick Feeney and Andrea McLean in 2015. (David M Benett/Dave Benett/WireImage)

But McLean has said she included details about wanting to end her life in the book that her husband didn’t know about until he read it.

Speaking to Hello! Magazine, she said: "Nick didn't know I had put it in, he didn't even know it had happened.

"I hadn't mentioned it at all. I think it was quite a shock for him. Our disagreement was tiny, I can't even remember what it was about."

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Talking in the same piece, Feeney said: “To have that in the book, that after our argument, she felt like that was it. That was really, really tough."

In This Girl Is On Fire, McLean says: "At my lowest point, I was suicidal. This is the first time I've admitted that.

"Just days after I'd collapsed on my make-up artist Donna, I had an argument with my husband, Nick, and then went away on a work trip.

Andrea McLean attending the launch of her new book Confessions of a Menopausal Woman at the Devonshire Club in London. (Photo by Ian West/PA Images via Getty Images)
Andrea McLean at the launch of her 2018 book Confessions Of A Menopausal Woman at the Devonshire Club in London. (Ian West/PA Images via Getty Images)

'It was a trivial thing, the kind of spat all couples have, and he'd only been mildly annoyed with me.

"But I was in such a bad state of mind that it triggered overwhelming anxiety and other negative emotions."

Speaking on the White Wine Question Time podcast last month, Feeney said: “How did I not realise that she's been trying to tell me?

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“I didn't hear it, so it was actually me that said, ‘we need therapy’. And she's like, 'Oh my God, it's not that bad.'

“I said, ‘It's not about that… I need to hear you and I'm not hearing you, so I need to be taught how I can help.’”

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