Britney Spears celebrates Christmas early – as she admits newfound freedom is scary

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Britney Spears has confessed she is feeling intimidated by her new freedom and is scared of making a mistake.

The 39-year-old singer – whose father Jamie was suspended as conservator of her estate last month – shared a picture of a Christmas tree on Instagram, revealing she is marking her freedom by celebrating the holidays early, simply because she can.

But Spears admitted: "I'll just be honest and say I've waited so long to be free from the situation I’m in and now that it's here I'm scared to do anything because I'm afraid I'll make a mistake!

HOLLYWOOD, CALIFORNIA - JULY 22: Britney Spears attends Sony Pictures'
Britney Spears has admitted that her newfound freedom is intimidating. (Getty Images)

"For so many years I was always told if I succeeded at things, it could end and it never did! I worked so hard but now that it's here and getting closer and closer to ending I'm very happy but there's a lot of things that scare me!"

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The Oops... I Did It Again! singer – whose life has been controlled by her conservatorship since 2008 – revealed she had been excited to be allowed to drive her own car again after 13 years, only to be made nervous of the freedom by paparazzi photographers chasing her.

She said: "The paps run through the trees and onto the road when I drive home and it's creepy... I started experiencing that when I got the keys to my car for the first time 4 months ago and it’s been 13 years!"

WEST HOLLYWOOD, CA - JUNE 26:  Britney Spears sighting at Starbucks Coffee Shop on June 26, 2009 in West Hollywood, California. (Photo by OutOfSightMedia/BuzzFoto/FilmMagic)
Britney Spears said she had been made fearful of driving again after being chased by paparazzi. (Getty Images)

The Toxic singer added: "I’m celebrating Christmas way early this year because why not ???!!! I believe any reason to find more joy in life is a good idea and it’s no secret that I’ve been through it in the past so I might have to do things a little differently from now on!"

But she warned her family that she may choose to speak publicly about the way she was treated by them during her conservatorship.

Spears said: "Lord have mercy on my family’s souls if I ever do an interview."

And the singer – who previously thanked the #FreeBritney movement for their support – admitted that now she is being released from her conservatorship she will be posting less on social media.

HOLLYWOOD, CALIFORNIA - JULY 22: Britney Spears and Sam Asghari attend the Los Angeles premiere of
Britney Spears is engaged to dancer Sam Asghari. (Getty Images)

She said: "I'm fearful of doing something wrong so I won’t be posting as much in a world where it's our liberty to be free, it's a shame!"

Spears announced last month she is engaged to her 27-year-old personal trainer boyfriend Sam Asghari.

She went on to delete her Instagram account, telling fans: "Don’t worry folks … just taking a little break from social media to celebrate my engagement !!!! I’ll be back soon."

She returned to the social media platform just six days later, saying, "I couldn't stay away from the gram too long so I'm back already."

Spears recently told a judge during testimony in the court case regarding her conservatorship: "I want to be able to get married and have a baby."

The ...Baby One More Time singer is mother to sons Sean, 15, and Jayden, 15, with ex-husband Kevin Federline. The couple split in 2006 and he has 70% custody of their children.

LOS ANGELES, CA - NOVEMBER 29:  Sean Federline, Jayden James Federline, Britney Spears and Sam Asghari attend a basketball game between the Los Angeles Lakers and the Golden State Warriors at Staples Center on November 29, 2017 in Los Angeles, California.  (Photo by Allen Berezovsky/Getty Images)
Britney Spears with sons Sean and Jayden and fiance Sam Asghari in 2017. (Getty Images)

Her father Jamie has been in charge of his daughter’s estate since 2008. He also oversaw the Slave 4 U singer’s personal affairs, but left that role in 2019.

The conservatorship was put in place to protect the singer due to her ill mental health.

This led to the Free Britney movement: a legion of fans who believe the singer is being kept in unfair conditions under the conservatorship.

Spears – who entered the spotlight at the age of 11 on Disney’s The Mickey Mouse Club – suffered from the pressures of fame and work and had a very public breakdown in 2007.

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After being put into her father’s care she went on to revive her career, appearing as a judge on the US version of The X Factor, performing several hit world tours and starring in a successful Las Vegas residency.

Singer Britney Spears (2nd,L) and family (L-R), father Jamie, brother Bryan and mother Lynne celebrate with Jamie Spears's partners (not shown) George and Phil Maloof and John Decastro, at the launch party for their new Palms Home Poker Host software held at the one of a kind Hardwood Suite at the Palms Casino Resort in Las Vegas. (Photo by Chris Farina/Corbis via Getty Images)
Britney Spears with her father Jamie, brother Bryan and mother Lynne. (Getty Images)

Her family have argued she was placed under the conservatorship for her own protection as she was mentally ill and "vulnerable" to being manipulated for her fortune.

However, she pulled out of a second Las Vegas run due to stress and has not performed since October 2018.

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