Caroline Flack’s family have released an unpublished Instagram post written days before she died.
The former Love Island presenter was found dead in her east London flat aged 40 on Saturday.
Flack was awaiting trial after pleading not guilty to charges of assaulting her boyfriend Lewis Burton, 27.
The former Love Island presenter was found dead at her home in east London on Saturday. An inquest on Tuesday gave her provisional cause of death as by hanging.
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Flack wrote: “I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night,” but insisted: “I am NOT a domestic abuser. We had an argument and an accident happened.”
The TV presenter said that pictures of her blood-stained bedroom taken after the incident in December and sold to a newspaper showed her own blood. She added: “That was something very sad and very personal.”
Opening up about her battles with mental health, she said: “I've been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time.”
She went on: “I've been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life – for my whole life. I've accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it's all part of my job.”
She said that after her arrest, “My whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed. I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.”
Flack said she wanted to speak out because: “My family can't take anymore. I've lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment... I'm so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through.”
She added: “I'm not thinking about 'how I'm going to get my career back.' I'm thinking about how I'm going to get mine and my family's life back.”
Flack’s mother Chris Flack told the EDP: "Carrie sent me this message at the end of January but was told not to post it by advisers but she so wanted to have her little voice heard.
"So many untruths were out there but this is how she felt and my family and I would like people to read her own words.
"Carrie was surrounded by love and friends but this was just too much for her.”
Mrs Flack added: “Nothing could take away the hurt of such injustice.
"As Carrie would say: 'In a nasty world just be kind.'"
Flack’s management company has criticised the Crown Prosecution Service (CPS) for not dropping the charge even though the presenter’s boyfriend Burton, a former tennis professional turned model, had said he did not want the case to go ahead.
A CPS spokesman said: “Our deepest sympathies go to the family and friends of Caroline Flack.
“Given the tragic circumstances, we will not comment on the specifics of this case at this stage.”
Burton released an emotional statement following Flack’s death.
He wrote: “My heart is broken we had something so special. I am so lost for words I am in so much pain I miss you so much I know you felt safe with me you always said I don’t think about anything else when I am with you and I was not allowed to be there this time.”
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