Kate Lawler has revealed she rushed her newborn baby to A&E at the weekend with concerns for her breathing.
The former Big Brother winner and radio DJ, who welcomed baby Noa 11 days early on 11 February, said they returned to hospital for blood tests when she became worried her daughter was struggling to breathe.
Lawler, 40, revealed on Instagram: "Saturday night Noa began showing signs of difficulty breathing so we rushed her to A&E and thankfully were seen immediately.
"Her respiratory levels were high so bloods were taken but all came back normal and she settled so we went home."
The Virgin Radio Drivetime presenter admitted she was finding motherhood very emotional as she shared pictures of herself in tears in her nursing bra.
Lawler revealed: "I’ve cried because I’m tired, I’m not feeling confident in what I’m doing or if either of us are doing it right, over horrendous, dark thoughts about losing my daughter, when our meditation playlist came on as it reminded me of when Noa was in NICU.
"I cried over spilt milk - literally. Expressed milk, poured into a storage bag which fell over, sending milk everywhere. BRILLIENNNT. I cry because my hands and my arms are in excruciating pain from carpal tunnel syndrome. Nobody told me this is common for new Mums. Anyone else suffered from this? Pins and needles, numbness, shooting pains in hands and up my arms. I’ve got wrist splints on now though which are helping."
She added: "I see other new Mums on here looking glam, like the first two weeks are a breeze and I truly wish I could say it is but it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced. Hopefully it’ll get easier. I’ve not done many stories as I just haven’t had time or the energy. Sending positive vibes to any new Mums feeling the same. Know you’re not alone and it’s good to cry it out."
Lawler later revealed on her Instagram stories that she had been overwhelmed by the messages of support she had received in response to her frank post about her mental health struggles.
She said: "I've been blown away by the messages of support... although reading your comments made me cry even more... today I have felt so much better so thank you."
Lawler had previously publicly admitted she had not been sure if she wanted to become a mother in her podcast Maybe Baby.
She told Hello magazine: "I turned 40 in May and suddenly I felt grown up and like I was ready for something and I didn't know what it was."
The couple had been dating for eight years when her partner Martin proposed in 2018.
They had been due to tie the knot last year but were forced to postpone their wedding due to the coronavirus pandemic, so they decided to have a baby in the meantime.
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