Kristin Cavallari Weighed 102 Lbs., Felt 'Unhappy, Stressed Out' in Jay Cutler Marriage: 'Skin and Bones'

“I look back at photos from that time period and I am like, ‘Holy s—.’ I was rail f—ing thin,” the 37-year-old said

• Kristin Cavallari said she dropped from 114 lbs. to 102 lbs. while filming Very Cavallari

• The reality star said she lost weight due to stress before splitting from ex-husband Jay Cutler

• She is now happier with her weight and is focused on building muscle in the gym

Kristin Cavallari is opening up about the weight loss she experienced before ending her marriage to ex-husband Jay Cutler in 2020.

During the June 11 episode of her Let's Be Honest podcast, the Laguna Beach alum, 37, responded to a fan who commented on how “thin” she looked on Very Cavallari, which aired from 2018 to 2020.

“I was very thin,” she admitted. “I’ll put it in perspective for you guys. I’m 5’3. I currently weigh 114 lbs. Filming Very Cavallari, I got down to 102, and I was eating the same amount of food that I’m eating now.”

“The difference was I was so unhappy and so stressed out,” she recalled. “I look back at photos from that time period and I am like, ‘Holy s—.’ I was rail f—ing thin. I was skin and bones. I looked like s—. And you guys, that was just stress. That was being in a really unhappy marriage, quite honestly. Literally, I was so unhappy, and I had way too much on my plate.”

Cavallari said that she thinks she looks “so much better now,” boasting that she takes a lot more care of her body. The reality star said she works out four to five days a week for an hour, one of those days with a trainer lifting “really heavy” weights to gain more muscle.

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“Now I’m just taking care of myself in so many more ways,” she said.

“I think with the gym, it’s consistency. It’s just showing up for yourself,” she continued. “If I’m really busy and I only work out two to three times a week… fine. I used to get mad at myself and I would feel guilty. A really horrible way of living. Where now, I’m like, ‘Okay, I just needed a little more rest this week.’… I actually think rest is  just as important.”

Cavallari previously talked about her weight in her book Balancing in Heels. The TV host and designer revealed she was secretly facing “damaging” body image issues – and depriving herself of food for days before bingeing on the weekend.

“You name it, I’ve done it: the Zone Diet, no-carb diet, grapefruit diet. There was even one period when I would eat a block of cheese and justify it by saying I was on the Atkins diet. Ha!” she wrote. “But primarily, as early as high school, I thought that depriving myself of certain foods (sweets and carbs) and limiting calories would result in the body of my dreams.”

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Cavallari said she’d be “super-strict” about her diet for five days a week, limiting herself to about 1,800 calories a day and ending up “hungry and unsatisfied.”

“Then the weekend came, and it was a free-for-all,” she said. “I drank numerous vodka cranberries and ate everything I didn’t allow myself the previous five days. Grilled cheese, pizza, fries dipped in ranch dressing, red velvet cupcakes and ice cream were on the menu, all at the same time. I remember times when one girlfriend and I would order enough delivery food to feed eight people, and we would polish it all off.”

Not surprisingly, her habits didn’t work: She wrote that she didn’t lose any weight, always had a “pooch” on her stomach and suffered from acne and a lack of energy.

But her mindset changed after becoming pregnant with her first child, Camden Jack, now 11. Cavallari is also mom to son Jaxon Wyatt, 10, and daughter Saylor James, 8.

“Becoming pregnant made me get serious about my health. Before pregnancy, I thought zero-calorie food was good for you and every calorie was equal. Deep down, I knew that my eating habits weren’t truly healthful, but I put a lot of pressure on myself to be thin. I was my own worst critic: I hated the way I looked in certain pictures. Everyone around me was tiny, and I felt like I had to be too. I thought counting calories gave me control over my body,” she explained. “But when I became pregnant, I knew that everything I did, and especially what I ate, had a direct effect on my baby.”

“For the first time in my life, I didn’t care if I gained a lot of weight,” Cavallari added. “It was a time to eat well and eat smart.”

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