Michelle Heaton has spoken out about her alcohol addiction as she prepares to celebrate being 100 days sober.
In the emotional chat, she said she was even given “a couple of days to live” before turning her life around.
“I'm approaching 100 days clean and sober,” she proudly declared. “Just that intro makes me well up, but now with joy instead of fear. I'm delighted to be here with you and to be able to speak properly.”
Explaining her journey through alcohol addiction, Heaton explained: “I became very very ill, it was a five year process. About three years it got a bit of a hold on me, I was happy in my addiction.”
“Sometimes it's difficult to say you have an addiction because at times it feels fun, that's the reality of it, [alcohol] was my friend in need,” she added. “Any feeling, sad, happy, the sun's shining, a party - any excuse.
“It got a hold of me really badly about a year and a half ago. My husband [Hugh Hanley] and friends tried an intervention to get me to rehab.”
While her friends and family desperately tried to help her, it wasn’t until three months ago that Heaton finally went into a rehab, calling the decision and the process “the hardest part” to sobriety.
“Three months ago I was on death's door, I was given a couple of days [to live]. I was so ill I had lost so much weight, my skin was translucent, my belly was swollen and hard,” she said.
“I was sick so I could drink more. I'd feel happy so I could drink more. It controlled everything I did.”
Despite even ending up in hospital with a failed pancreas and liver disease, Heaton continued to drink, saying by that point she “couldn’t stop herself”.
“I was told if I continued I would die but I still didn't stop. Nothing mattered, my skin, I could see my veins, my skin was itchy, I was scratched with scars.
“My hair has gone, this isn't mine, it's been put in by my hairdresser. The great news is that the liver repairs, it's an amazing organ. It will repair, but not forget.
“I'm under no illusions, one drink and I could be right back to where I was... if not worse.”
Thankfully, she is now on the road to recovery, and Heaton credits husband Hanley as “her rock”.
Together they have two children - nine-year-old Faith, and seven-year-old Aaron.
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