Britain’s Got Talent judge Amanda Holden has spoken out about the heartache of having a stillborn child.
The former actress turned TV presenter gave birth to a stillborn boy she named Theo, and opened up about the traumatic and gut-wrenching experience of losing her newborn baby.
Talking on ITV show The NHS Saved My Life, Amanda, 47, shared her innermost thoughts on the moment she gave birth to her son, saying it was something of an ‘out-of-body experience,’ for her.
She said she recalled hearing ‘this woman screaming and screaming’ before realising it was actually her.
‘It was the most surreal, out-of-body experience and I was actually calling my daughter’s name because I was just terrified about what to tell Lexi at the time,’ she said.
Speaking of the heartbreaking moment she accepted that Theo was gone and how she reacted to it, Amanda said: ‘He looked so normal and so peaceful. I held him in my arms and I said goodbye, basically.’
She went on to thanks the NHS and all the workers involved:
‘I couldn’t have done it without the incredible team around us. My husband was so strong and so amazing but they got him through it too.’
Amanda praised the NHS staff that helped her not only through the unpleasant event itself but supported her in the aftermath.
‘And then the days and months afterwards, the same team of people checked on us every single day and it’s not because I’m off the telly or famous or anything like that, she insisted. ‘I believe they’d have extended that care to any woman.’
The show is to thank and commemorate the NHS’s 70th anniversary, and hightlight its tireless staff and resources, and will include firsthand accounts of the dedication, skills, and bravery of its workers and how it operates.
The NHS Saved My Life airs on ITV tonight at 7.30pm.