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- English singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist
Ellie Goulding has revealed she used to drink before interviews to try and make herself seem more fun.
The Burn singer insisted she wasn’t a big drinker but admitted she turned to alcohol to cope with the pressure of putting on a public persona - including at Radio 1 Live Lounge performances, which are often recorded in the morning.
Goulding, 32, told Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast: “I had to be a fake person to deal with the surreal situation I was in. Usually for me it involved alcohol. I assumed I couldn’t be good enough, smart, funny, or crazy enough to be with certain people without it.
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“Live Lounges used to be most nerve-wracking, I even drank before those, I swear to God. I would say, ‘Right, I’ve got to drink this morning because I’ve got this interview and I don’t really know how to answer the questions, because I don’t really know who I am any more’.
“I thought drinking would at least make me a bit more funny, or interesting. I wasn’t an alcoholic. I could go months without a drink too.”
The Love Me Like You Do singer - who married art dealer Caspar Jopling in August this year - also confessed she was not able to be herself during her celebrity relationships with DJ Greg James and McFly’s Dougie Poynter.
Goulding said: “I didn’t know who I was. I was in relationships but I felt like I needed to have someone because I wasn’t close to my family.
“I had this job taking me around the world, that was forcing me to be in the spotlight every day, to be talked about, so I always needed someone. But I wasn’t really me. So anyone I was close to, I don’t want to say it wasn’t real, but it wasn’t what it should have been. I regret that, but it was my survival.”