Lacey Turner has told how she walked around feeling ‘heartbroken’ after returning to the EastEnders set the day after suffering a miscarriage.
The actress – who plays Stacey Slater on the BBC One soap – suffered the loss three years ago.
She had kept quiet about the pregnancy and went straight back to work.
According to reports, she opened up about the experience on Channel 5 programme Miscarriage: Our Story, saying she had carried on “like nothing had happened” and that looking back, that made her feel sad.
“I was probably walking around feeling so heartbroken yet nobody would have had a clue,” said the actress.
“There's this whole taboo about not speaking about pregnancy and keeping it a secret until you are 12 weeks and we sort of said, it's so early so don't tell anybody.
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“I just felt so empty.
“I've gone from being so excited and we waited so long for this baby to feeling numb I guess.”
Turner went on to have another miscarriage but last year she and her husband Matt Kay welcomed a baby girl, who they named Dusty.
They announced last month that they are expecting a second child together.
Speaking to OK! magazine, Turner said: "After last time, we learned the best way was to have the attitude of 'if it happens it happens' – and then it did!
"It was a lovely surprise. It took so long with Dusty, but now they're coming along like buses!
"After the heartbreak we went through, it’s a miracle to fall pregnant so quickly."
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