Robbie Williams: Taking a lot of cocaine made me want to commit suicide
Robbie Williams has revealed he thought about killing himself during a dark time when he was “doing a lot of coke”.
The Feel singer opened up about his drug abuse and mental health issues while talking to Jo Woods' Alien Nation podcast about his time living in a “dark” house in Primrose Hill with an ex-girlfriend.
Williams revealed he would 'always hear footsteps which got progressively worse”, which frightened him into to leaving the house and insisting he “would have to kill himself if he went back”.
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Williams explained: “Instantly, I picked up on it being weird and dark and having an energy. The first time it manifested itself as something physical the ghetto blaster came on.
“I was doing a lot of coke at the time. I would be in the house but hear footsteps go up the stairs. It got progressively worse. She (ex-girlfriend) thought it was her granddad.
“I would get in the car and whatever it was would jump in the backseat. Two months in, I couldn’t deal with it any more. I thought if this stays with me I was going to commit suicide.”
The Angels singer went on: “I got up one day, and there was a dark mist at the end of my bed. I was too scared to go and brush my teeth as I would have to walk through this mist.
I just said to my girlfriend at the time ‘I am going now, are you going to come with me?’”
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Williams continued: “We went to the Swiss Cottage Marriott hotel. I was speaking to my A&R guy, I was explaining to him about what had happened and I said, rather dramatically, if it had stayed with me I would have had to kill myself.”
Williams revealed he later learned the house had been built on a Black Death burial site.
Williams also spoked about his daughter Teddy, six, being scared by presences at their home in Wiltshire.
He said: “I used to speak to my daughter Teddy giving her a snuggle before bed and I would be like: ‘Can you remember what happened in mummy’s tummy?’ But she doesn’t remember what happened before she arrived here.
“We have got this house that is a thousand years old, in Wiltshire. Teddy’s room in particular is weird. We have moved her out of it now.”
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