Chris Brown opens up about punching Rihanna: 'I felt like a f*****g monster'

16 August 2017 at 5:52 am

Chris Brown became the most hated man in music back in 2009 when it was revealed that he had punched his girlfriend Rihanna with a ‘closed fist’ in the face.

He has now opened up about their relationhip for the first time ever in the new documentary, Chris Brown: Welcome To My Life, and says he was in a state of ‘shock’ after that fateful night and felt like a ‘f*****g monster’.

Chris Brown Opens Up About Relationship With Rihanna

Chris says their relationship soured after he came clean about his sexual past with a woman who once worked for him.

He shared: ‘She hated me. After that, I tried everything. She didn’t care, she just didn’t trust me after that.’

He added that they became fiery towards each other, with his ex-girlfriend reciprocating the violence.

‘From there, it just went downhill because it would be fights, it would be verbal fights, physical fights as well. Mutual sides, it is the first time I get to say anything.’

Then recalling the incident that has shaped his reptutaion, at the pre-Grammys Clive Davis party in 2009, Chris said: ‘I remember she tried to kick me, just like her beating s**t, but then I really hit her. With a closed fist, like I punched her and it busted her lip. And when I saw it I was in shock, I was like, f**k why did I hit her like that?

‘From there she’s spitting blood in my face, it raised me even more.

WATCH: Chris Brown opens up about the night he assaulted Rihanna

Chris, 28, still has strong feelings for Rihanna, but he admitted their relationship was unhealthy for the both of them.

He confessed: ‘I still love Rihanna, but I’m just going to be honest – we would fight each other, she would hit me, I would hit her, but it never was OK.

‘It was always a point to where we talk about it like, ‘What the f**k are we doing?”

‘It’s a real fight in the car and we were driving in the street … She tried to grab for my phone, and I’m not giving her my phone, to throw it out the window.’

And it changed their relationship forever, because Rihanna lost all trust in him from that moment.

The ‘Beautiful Monster’ hitmaker also admitted the night he assaulted his ex-girlfriend proved to be a turning point in his life.

He explained: ‘If I go on stage, I got a scratch on my face, and I’ve got to explain it, like ‘Oh I fell’, or if you got a scar or a bruise, you got to put make-up on.

‘S**t, I’m not ever trying to put my hands on any female.’

Back in August 2012, Rihanna finally spoke candidly to Oprah Winfrey in a sit-down discussion about her relationship with Chris and how she was able to finally forgive him for the unforgettable evening.

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